friends here in this post i wud like to find a solution to the question---how my mind works???
Numerous times has it left me in the middle with no way to come back..but still i managed to be where i am now.When i sometimes think of what i could have been i feel fucked up.I still recall the time in high school when i was invincible in studies--no question was there which i could not solve..even then i has this feeling of insecurity..my mind has some kind of inborn disorder--some kind of inferiority complex..i never feel satisfied after giving any exam..even if i knew i am getting full marks..(which i dont happen to get now..)..though i did feel happy afterwards when i got more marks than i expected..When i look back at that time i surely feel i could have easily made it to the best suldents of the country..But i never took the right decisions at the right time..Lets study the time after 10th till now..
I got admission in KVK..As usual i felt like doing bad in all exams while i ended up doing good..but this good was different from what good used to be..previously i got marks bcoz i felt worthy of it..but now i dont know there were so many things that i dint know..still got marks..thats when i started to loosen up..Thats the first time when i started to do
fUKC I FEEL REALLY SORRY TO CONTINUE WRITING THIS CRAP..i WILL CONTINUE THIS SHIT LATER...
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Learn from me how to get screwed...
Shit shit fuck fuck thats what i curse myself when my phone rings these days.Coz i m proceeding towards something which i never wanted..i dont know how to get out of this position.Its completely me to blame just me...Lets see how i got into this...
This is again a GIRL.Just in my last post i wrote girls are out of my life for the time being but i dint know then that time would be been so quickly.I met this girl in my Uncle's marriage 'J' her initials.She looked quite impressive then.We were one of the so called 'marriage-time couples' then with everyone winking eyes at us.but that was all then..i talked to her ..she was one class senior to me.So we both presumed she was older to me and there was no possible match.but we remained friends.It was back then on 2006-7. I called her the first time a week after and i was quite hardstruck to find her mother on the other end of the line.I just introduced myself to her as quickly as possible and cut the phone with the determination of never calling her back again..But soon after her call came and thats how our callings started but completely as friends coz she was elder to me.Our callings were mostly on making fun.i did hurt her a lot of times.Thats how 1--2--3 years past.She was the first one i informed after making my first girlfriend.Thats when i stopped talking frequently to her..
After my breakup i called her to inform of this((see my fucking mind)).And she was more than enough sympathetic towards me.So frequent calls started again
Thats when the problem started.One day probably 3 days before i jokingly proposed her..Haah ..she took it too seriously..She told she needed some time to think..After leaving the call did i realize that haw can i propose a girl whom i haven't even met for 4 years.I prayed from my heart that she rejects me and we remain just friends..She called the next day and 'i am not able to accept ur reguest' i thanked god..........................but her voice sounded something else.I could feel a yes in her no...god damn it..I diverted the discussion that we should better remain friends...But but but..dont know how much i succeeded..
Next day we talked again for quite some long time.In the whole time i tried diverting the topics while she tried to converge my diversion.She kept asking me questions which needed me to show my committment which i dint want.The only reason for me not wanting to get involved is that i have not seen her for 4 long years.So if she turns out to be not my type..what to do..besides she is too close to my family..anything rumour could spread like a jungle fire..Now i am in a situation --i dont want to lose her as friend while friendship is pointing towards a relationship..gosh what to do..
Thats when the problem started.One day probably 3 days before i jokingly proposed her..Haah ..she took it too seriously..She told she needed some time to think..After leaving the call did i realize that haw can i propose a girl whom i haven't even met for 4 years.I prayed from my heart that she rejects me and we remain just friends..She called the next day and 'i am not able to accept ur reguest' i thanked god..........................but her voice sounded something else.I could feel a yes in her no...god damn it..I diverted the discussion that we should better remain friends...But but but..dont know how much i succeeded..
Next day we talked again for quite some long time.In the whole time i tried diverting the topics while she tried to converge my diversion.She kept asking me questions which needed me to show my committment which i dint want.The only reason for me not wanting to get involved is that i have not seen her for 4 long years.So if she turns out to be not my type..what to do..besides she is too close to my family..anything rumour could spread like a jungle fire..Now i am in a situation --i dont want to lose her as friend while friendship is pointing towards a relationship..gosh what to do..
Sunday, October 18, 2009
F.R.I.E.N.D.S
GIRLS ARE TEMPORARILY OUT OF MY LIFE....Well friends u all r my friends but this post is abt those who have been really close to me over the past 20 years.There might be many new additions in future but i feel i have more than enough to write a whole book on them--friends who r my lifetime achievements some of whom are fuckers,some saints...the variation goes on..
I will start writing on them in as sequential order as possible..I'll use their nicks or abbvs. for the sake of their identity..
HIGH SCHOOL:
1>>M--The name has little difference to my initials..But that small change has huge impact on our characters.I knew him since i started going to school.He was the joker of all the classmates.Breaking rules was his inborn talent.The entire school knew the bastard he was the only one who wore a different coloured tie--the orders of the principal even couldn't change him. He became very popular with his acts of litchi stealing from the school neighborhood.But all in all he had a heart which beat in resonance with mine..Numerous times he cheated me on money, tiffin,pencils not me only-- he had the entire class under his regime--he called himself the king of cheats.However we were the best of friends..We grew up together with maa always warning me of getting into some kind of trouble coz of him but my father loved him to be my friend..We crossed all the classes together but while on one hand i accelerated on studies..he took the jump towards GIRLS.By the time i discovered what sex and girls were he had already had girlfriends.That created a gap in our friendship--but after i went to college i was back compatible to understand him.He told me abt all the girls he had had on the past.*content are hidden coz of censorship problem*..He is still a gr8 buddy for me to hang out with.U never feel bore with him.We biked the last night of puja in his filthy old rx100.
2>>GC--Nicknamed Goru till the time we felt embarrassed more than him calling that name.He was also what is called a chuddie-buddie.A very disciplined fellow completely contrary to BRB coz of his medical background.He sat with a girl for all the primary years till he gained enough consciousness to try to escape from that girl.I was actually the intermediate amongst us three.however he was not able to metriculate the same year as us coz of some MALE thing.I met him last time in august and we have gr8 time whenever we meet.
KVK
3>>BJP--Sounds political..He only sounds and looks thats all.He does nothing..He sounds like the bastard yelling out fucking swears like bursts of air coming out of his mouth.But as far much as he says he has never ever shit(which i dont believe).U just look at his face at home--the cutest boy in the world--he even makes me feel a rascal at his home.But all in all he is very close to my heart--i 'll always do my best to be of any help to him--and i feel he also feels so.He is one of my achievements in KVK.I pay a visit to his house whenever i go to Guwahati.
4>>AD--The superman.The cute boylike look completely hides the devil inside him.He has always been the greatest showoff especially in case of girls.Lied the two years in KVK about a mysterious girlfriend which we now doubt ever existed.He ended up as far as i know with a girl whom i donot think compatible to him.Anyway thats how the shithead is.
5>>AB--Nakamura.When i entered kvk..the very sight of this man was the source of all the explosions of laughter around.U cudn't stop laughing on seeing him --he had the face --one amongst a billion indians.He was definitely a JAP mistakenly swapped duding a JApanese covert operation in the Northeast.But we buddies had the hell of a great time partying at his home(not the hard ones)..But buddy i miss u a lot..
6>>GBS & NK--These were another two of my greatest buds.Ballav as the first one liked to frame himself as had one of the filthiest mouth in KVK.The greatest reciter of erotica.But he became a fused bulb in front of girls.NK--Paji that what i used to call him though he was noway near similar to one.A decent fellow with same heart as ballav but with a completely different color.He was calm and serious but always helpful.The two fellows were classmates from childhood started off their life at kvk as the 'goodest' guys which soon metamorphosised.But anyway i love these buddies coz they think the way i think.
TJ & SS--Chirkut as the class bullied him..baby boy amongst all..looks all innocent but i doubt the inner side..loyality flashed in his eyes..mad for taht is all to define him.Always desperate to come out of his baby shell.Saha--my benchmate and toughest competitor(though i always feel he is much better to me).Mad for cricket---i still dint quite understand why he wrote in my testimonial 'loved the ones i loved,hated the ones i hated'.However to me his face was completely contrary to Chirkut's--no innocence at all.But all in all i found great mental resonance amongst these guys.
DS--Bamun..we had been great friends back then at kvk but thereafter completely lost track of him.I dont want to write abt him but buddy wherever u r i miss u..
IISER--
JD--2G as he initially abbreviated himself..probably thought it was cool.but gradually warmed up on the concept.I still recall his first day here--1 week late..reached hostel..kept bag and went out straight to play futball!!Btw he knew me since my time in kvk--for he happens to be from the same school as ballav and paji.Soon we became great buddies partly
coz we shared the same language--assamese.He is a champ in all kinds of sports which includes playing with girls(he is a virgin till now!!!)Wherever he goes his first job is to collect information about the whores and brothels there and what rate is going on(though he never happened to use one ever)!!Buys condoms quite regularly just to throw them away uselessly!!
.Even once he was caught at home with one in pocket(dont know how he handled the situation)..It is not that he doesnt get opportunities--i think he doesnt have the guts.He once went to a brothel(OLY pub case) and paid money just to have a look at the
whore!!But on the whole he is a man --of words--of loyalty--of trust.I feel proud to have achieved such a friend.He is the only friend except the school ones to have visited my home and also quite a lot of my relatives.
NK--UUltiman.Handsome hunk of iiser and a great friend.Does the greatest deal of gymming here resulting in his healthy figure(of no use!!)Got this peculiar name coz he vommitts every time he sits on a bus.Gets angry too quickly and becomes cool equally fast.a great judge of character(which definitely comes from the nice parents he got)..Desperate in search
of sex..was involved in the OLY pub case with G2.Dude u r close to my heart.
KS--Netaji..The great political figure of our batch.A man with a golden heart.The only one here seriously in love witha girl.My lab partner.he is a bit arrogant at times but if u adapt to him u'll find out..he is ur greatest buddy.I just like him the way he is.
SP--Pallo..The guy with the purest heart known to me..He is so pure and innocent that u just cant stop loving him..he has got this fuck-face that has no expressions at all.Does such silly activities--u cant stop laughing.Does get senti at times but that is for nano seconds.Recently he had this flight 'kaand' that makes me laugh everytime i look at his face--a sexy girl sat beside him on the plane--he got an erection--he went to the washroom--couldn't toilet--sat down
for laterine--couldnt find a water tap--wiped his ass with tissue paper--found the tap after doing this and finally ended up messing the washroom around.Now what do u say of this dickhead.But anyway he is highly intelligent and i believe his grades should have been much higher.He is too humble to accept his talent and i feel great to have achieved such a friend..
RG--Baba ji.Thats what he is famous as here in hostel.First of my 2 room-mates.A gr8 musician and composer of which i am also proud to have as room-mate.wants to fall in love and even had a kind o relationship going on around the same time i had mine.Bu thats his past and the search continues.baba has his own way of living his own little world--his own way of thinking and his own perception of people.I feel great that i fall in the catagory which he considers good and
wud always like to remain so.
AM--Orkut-chacha..cOZ he gathered 3000 scraps in record 2.5 months time(see his dedication!!)My second room-mate..one of the three students to make a japan trip..probably the one with whom i spend the maximum time here.He is definitely built for engineering..very talented..when i sometimes look at his face in the class i can understand how dejected he feels
to be not amongst the 'heavy -learners'(coz i also feel the same).But again this guy is also greatly desperate of girls--i know of hi frustration for one of his kolkata 'GIRL'friend who always finds some pretext not to meet.Whatever,, he is very close to my heart.
SM--Chacha--The fuck-omedian of our batch.He can turn every good song into a fuck-song with all the bitchy words he can collect--many people do that but his ones are NICE to hear.otherwise very very helpful and generous.God of porn collection An adrent tera patricia fan and a proponent of the russian school here.He is very intelligent and helps in a great deal
in studies.Man i like u.
AD--Doggy..Thats what i call him.He is the only one in iiser whom i really admire.His geniusness makes me try to follow his steps.He is actually like a role model to me.Thats all i want to write of him.and i wish he shines in his life..
I will start writing on them in as sequential order as possible..I'll use their nicks or abbvs. for the sake of their identity..
HIGH SCHOOL:
1>>M--The name has little difference to my initials..But that small change has huge impact on our characters.I knew him since i started going to school.He was the joker of all the classmates.Breaking rules was his inborn talent.The entire school knew the bastard he was the only one who wore a different coloured tie--the orders of the principal even couldn't change him. He became very popular with his acts of litchi stealing from the school neighborhood.But all in all he had a heart which beat in resonance with mine..Numerous times he cheated me on money, tiffin,pencils not me only-- he had the entire class under his regime--he called himself the king of cheats.However we were the best of friends..We grew up together with maa always warning me of getting into some kind of trouble coz of him but my father loved him to be my friend..We crossed all the classes together but while on one hand i accelerated on studies..he took the jump towards GIRLS.By the time i discovered what sex and girls were he had already had girlfriends.That created a gap in our friendship--but after i went to college i was back compatible to understand him.He told me abt all the girls he had had on the past.*content are hidden coz of censorship problem*..He is still a gr8 buddy for me to hang out with.U never feel bore with him.We biked the last night of puja in his filthy old rx100.
2>>GC--Nicknamed Goru till the time we felt embarrassed more than him calling that name.He was also what is called a chuddie-buddie.A very disciplined fellow completely contrary to BRB coz of his medical background.He sat with a girl for all the primary years till he gained enough consciousness to try to escape from that girl.I was actually the intermediate amongst us three.however he was not able to metriculate the same year as us coz of some MALE thing.I met him last time in august and we have gr8 time whenever we meet.
KVK
3>>BJP--Sounds political..He only sounds and looks thats all.He does nothing..He sounds like the bastard yelling out fucking swears like bursts of air coming out of his mouth.But as far much as he says he has never ever shit(which i dont believe).U just look at his face at home--the cutest boy in the world--he even makes me feel a rascal at his home.But all in all he is very close to my heart--i 'll always do my best to be of any help to him--and i feel he also feels so.He is one of my achievements in KVK.I pay a visit to his house whenever i go to Guwahati.
4>>AD--The superman.The cute boylike look completely hides the devil inside him.He has always been the greatest showoff especially in case of girls.Lied the two years in KVK about a mysterious girlfriend which we now doubt ever existed.He ended up as far as i know with a girl whom i donot think compatible to him.Anyway thats how the shithead is.
5>>AB--Nakamura.When i entered kvk..the very sight of this man was the source of all the explosions of laughter around.U cudn't stop laughing on seeing him --he had the face --one amongst a billion indians.He was definitely a JAP mistakenly swapped duding a JApanese covert operation in the Northeast.But we buddies had the hell of a great time partying at his home(not the hard ones)..But buddy i miss u a lot..
6>>GBS & NK--These were another two of my greatest buds.Ballav as the first one liked to frame himself as had one of the filthiest mouth in KVK.The greatest reciter of erotica.But he became a fused bulb in front of girls.NK--Paji that what i used to call him though he was noway near similar to one.A decent fellow with same heart as ballav but with a completely different color.He was calm and serious but always helpful.The two fellows were classmates from childhood started off their life at kvk as the 'goodest' guys which soon metamorphosised.But anyway i love these buddies coz they think the way i think.
TJ & SS--Chirkut as the class bullied him..baby boy amongst all..looks all innocent but i doubt the inner side..loyality flashed in his eyes..mad for taht is all to define him.Always desperate to come out of his baby shell.Saha--my benchmate and toughest competitor(though i always feel he is much better to me).Mad for cricket---i still dint quite understand why he wrote in my testimonial 'loved the ones i loved,hated the ones i hated'.However to me his face was completely contrary to Chirkut's--no innocence at all.But all in all i found great mental resonance amongst these guys.
DS--Bamun..we had been great friends back then at kvk but thereafter completely lost track of him.I dont want to write abt him but buddy wherever u r i miss u..
IISER--
JD--2G as he initially abbreviated himself..probably thought it was cool.but gradually warmed up on the concept.I still recall his first day here--1 week late..reached hostel..kept bag and went out straight to play futball!!Btw he knew me since my time in kvk--for he happens to be from the same school as ballav and paji.Soon we became great buddies partly
coz we shared the same language--assamese.He is a champ in all kinds of sports which includes playing with girls(he is a virgin till now!!!)Wherever he goes his first job is to collect information about the whores and brothels there and what rate is going on(though he never happened to use one ever)!!Buys condoms quite regularly just to throw them away uselessly!!
.Even once he was caught at home with one in pocket(dont know how he handled the situation)..It is not that he doesnt get opportunities--i think he doesnt have the guts.He once went to a brothel(OLY pub case) and paid money just to have a look at the
whore!!But on the whole he is a man --of words--of loyalty--of trust.I feel proud to have achieved such a friend.He is the only friend except the school ones to have visited my home and also quite a lot of my relatives.
NK--UUltiman.Handsome hunk of iiser and a great friend.Does the greatest deal of gymming here resulting in his healthy figure(of no use!!)Got this peculiar name coz he vommitts every time he sits on a bus.Gets angry too quickly and becomes cool equally fast.a great judge of character(which definitely comes from the nice parents he got)..Desperate in search
of sex..was involved in the OLY pub case with G2.Dude u r close to my heart.
KS--Netaji..The great political figure of our batch.A man with a golden heart.The only one here seriously in love witha girl.My lab partner.he is a bit arrogant at times but if u adapt to him u'll find out..he is ur greatest buddy.I just like him the way he is.
SP--Pallo..The guy with the purest heart known to me..He is so pure and innocent that u just cant stop loving him..he has got this fuck-face that has no expressions at all.Does such silly activities--u cant stop laughing.Does get senti at times but that is for nano seconds.Recently he had this flight 'kaand' that makes me laugh everytime i look at his face--a sexy girl sat beside him on the plane--he got an erection--he went to the washroom--couldn't toilet--sat down
for laterine--couldnt find a water tap--wiped his ass with tissue paper--found the tap after doing this and finally ended up messing the washroom around.Now what do u say of this dickhead.But anyway he is highly intelligent and i believe his grades should have been much higher.He is too humble to accept his talent and i feel great to have achieved such a friend..
RG--Baba ji.Thats what he is famous as here in hostel.First of my 2 room-mates.A gr8 musician and composer of which i am also proud to have as room-mate.wants to fall in love and even had a kind o relationship going on around the same time i had mine.Bu thats his past and the search continues.baba has his own way of living his own little world--his own way of thinking and his own perception of people.I feel great that i fall in the catagory which he considers good and
wud always like to remain so.
AM--Orkut-chacha..cOZ he gathered 3000 scraps in record 2.5 months time(see his dedication!!)My second room-mate..one of the three students to make a japan trip..probably the one with whom i spend the maximum time here.He is definitely built for engineering..very talented..when i sometimes look at his face in the class i can understand how dejected he feels
to be not amongst the 'heavy -learners'(coz i also feel the same).But again this guy is also greatly desperate of girls--i know of hi frustration for one of his kolkata 'GIRL'friend who always finds some pretext not to meet.Whatever,, he is very close to my heart.
SM--Chacha--The fuck-omedian of our batch.He can turn every good song into a fuck-song with all the bitchy words he can collect--many people do that but his ones are NICE to hear.otherwise very very helpful and generous.God of porn collection An adrent tera patricia fan and a proponent of the russian school here.He is very intelligent and helps in a great deal
in studies.Man i like u.
AD--Doggy..Thats what i call him.He is the only one in iiser whom i really admire.His geniusness makes me try to follow his steps.He is actually like a role model to me.Thats all i want to write of him.and i wish he shines in his life..
Friday, October 9, 2009
Is this a patchup...
Life is in utterly confused position now.No girl in life is the single most reason.Biology was one of my strongholds in the class and i screwed it in the exam.Physics---too bad..Others good..More or less i stand in my same 8 pointer position..Durga puja was nice.. had great hopes of nailing chicks in frustration.But I am me not some Stifler.So a traditional family puja.visited all the pandals with ma and baba except for saptami and nabami..
On saptami i went to my didi's inlaws home to deliver the puja gifts.I had a female friend there..Hoped to meet her ..called he ...she replied she couldnt come that night..but asked me to stay till next day..but my luck forced me to return...so no meeting.However i did enjoy a lot wid my jiju's bro and finally had dinner at a bar.
Nabami --went out with bibek..biked the whole night on a mean RX100..went 30 km out of town at 2 am.returned home at 3 am.Ma suspested me of being drunk..i was greatly shocked..Went to bed with pindrop silence..
Dashami over and back to college.Same old life.It was on 8th october i god a missed call from my ex-girl.I dint know whether to reply or not..once i felt af calling back and swear the devil out.Then i thought of getting a better view of the situation by talking to my cousins..I called them and asked about her.They said that she was a cheat and it was good i had broken up with her.The also forbade me to call her.The next day at 12 pm i got one more call.I called back..It was her.I asked why she had called.She replied just to check the no. and handed the phone over to my cousin.My cousin said i broke her expectations.I felt dumb.was this one more of her games??I wrote a msg wid all the dirtiest slang i knew and sent it to her..She called back and talked to me in crying voice how could i think of her that way.She said atleast i should have understood why she did this to me.I was confused but felt bad that my msg was really really rude. I thought 4 an hour and finally sent another sms stating i was sorry and asked her i wanted to talk to her to clear things up at 5pm. I called at the predefined time and she received.we talked 4 more than 30 min and she told me all the developments leading to her acting that way.Her logic seemed genuine though i dint believe her completely..Thats all till now..
On saptami i went to my didi's inlaws home to deliver the puja gifts.I had a female friend there..Hoped to meet her ..called he ...she replied she couldnt come that night..but asked me to stay till next day..but my luck forced me to return...so no meeting.However i did enjoy a lot wid my jiju's bro and finally had dinner at a bar.
Nabami --went out with bibek..biked the whole night on a mean RX100..went 30 km out of town at 2 am.returned home at 3 am.Ma suspested me of being drunk..i was greatly shocked..Went to bed with pindrop silence..
Dashami over and back to college.Same old life.It was on 8th october i god a missed call from my ex-girl.I dint know whether to reply or not..once i felt af calling back and swear the devil out.Then i thought of getting a better view of the situation by talking to my cousins..I called them and asked about her.They said that she was a cheat and it was good i had broken up with her.The also forbade me to call her.The next day at 12 pm i got one more call.I called back..It was her.I asked why she had called.She replied just to check the no. and handed the phone over to my cousin.My cousin said i broke her expectations.I felt dumb.was this one more of her games??I wrote a msg wid all the dirtiest slang i knew and sent it to her..She called back and talked to me in crying voice how could i think of her that way.She said atleast i should have understood why she did this to me.I was confused but felt bad that my msg was really really rude. I thought 4 an hour and finally sent another sms stating i was sorry and asked her i wanted to talk to her to clear things up at 5pm. I called at the predefined time and she received.we talked 4 more than 30 min and she told me all the developments leading to her acting that way.Her logic seemed genuine though i dint believe her completely..Thats all till now..
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
The Breakup
Things dont always go as u wish--life do take sudden turns--icebergs dont look dangerous------
I may sound Keats, well u all can presume something bad has happened to me.Well to say the truth everything bad has happened to me this month.Disaster after disaster..let see how things changed..
I had that real date on 23rd July.I still have every moment of it in my hdd.U know at that time and the time afterwards i felt like a real man.Just the feeling that u have to look after a girl is an eternal source of energy.I felt the girl also felt the same way.She shared all of her thoughts wid me and i did the same.Day after day our bond strength increased and i could actually feel what she meant when she talked.
It was during that period i got my first mission.One day she told me that a certain boy was disturbing her.oooph what to answer--boys r like that dear ,i told myself.I had 2 console her so i said i'll talk to the guy.Now u all might suppose i'll call him and swear the fuck out of him..No no i dint do that.I handled the thing the IISERian way.i called him up as a friend..took his intro..then i asked him if he had a girlfriend.he replied no..i said he wud definitely have a gf some day..he said yes..i then said i have a gf..then i asked if he stalked girls..i said it is a good habit..u have to stalk girls to find ur girl..but the problem is that he was stalking my girl..now that's against the art of stalking. The guy was impressed ..we had actually become friends..We even planned to meet some day in future..The next two days i kept asking my gf if the guy called again.She dint receive any more calls..Job done..
One morning she called me up quite early in the morning and said that her father had heard her call to me last night.I was frightened,not for me but that my poor girl wud be facing tough time at home these days..She seemed upset and both of us resolved we wud talk less often now onwards.
The frequency of calls decreased exponentially.Slowly I could feel she didnot have that feeling she used to have.When u love some truly u get to know whays going on with ur heart.on much requesting she told her uncle have seen a boy for her.i dont know much of what happened after that but i got the hint.I just told her to try her best to save the relationship.I even asked her if i could meet her parents and talk to them.She said this wouldn't help.We decided we should give some more time to let things slow down.
It was during this period that i got news from my cousin that the girl was frequently seen with a new guy.The sentence itself was a shock to me.I dint know how to respond.I dint call or receive any call for a week.Finally on the tenth day i left her s SMS 'Why did u betray me?'No reply came.Thats all...............
I may sound Keats, well u all can presume something bad has happened to me.Well to say the truth everything bad has happened to me this month.Disaster after disaster..let see how things changed..
I had that real date on 23rd July.I still have every moment of it in my hdd.U know at that time and the time afterwards i felt like a real man.Just the feeling that u have to look after a girl is an eternal source of energy.I felt the girl also felt the same way.She shared all of her thoughts wid me and i did the same.Day after day our bond strength increased and i could actually feel what she meant when she talked.
It was during that period i got my first mission.One day she told me that a certain boy was disturbing her.oooph what to answer--boys r like that dear ,i told myself.I had 2 console her so i said i'll talk to the guy.Now u all might suppose i'll call him and swear the fuck out of him..No no i dint do that.I handled the thing the IISERian way.i called him up as a friend..took his intro..then i asked him if he had a girlfriend.he replied no..i said he wud definitely have a gf some day..he said yes..i then said i have a gf..then i asked if he stalked girls..i said it is a good habit..u have to stalk girls to find ur girl..but the problem is that he was stalking my girl..now that's against the art of stalking. The guy was impressed ..we had actually become friends..We even planned to meet some day in future..The next two days i kept asking my gf if the guy called again.She dint receive any more calls..Job done..
One morning she called me up quite early in the morning and said that her father had heard her call to me last night.I was frightened,not for me but that my poor girl wud be facing tough time at home these days..She seemed upset and both of us resolved we wud talk less often now onwards.
The frequency of calls decreased exponentially.Slowly I could feel she didnot have that feeling she used to have.When u love some truly u get to know whays going on with ur heart.on much requesting she told her uncle have seen a boy for her.i dont know much of what happened after that but i got the hint.I just told her to try her best to save the relationship.I even asked her if i could meet her parents and talk to them.She said this wouldn't help.We decided we should give some more time to let things slow down.
It was during this period that i got news from my cousin that the girl was frequently seen with a new guy.The sentence itself was a shock to me.I dint know how to respond.I dint call or receive any call for a week.Finally on the tenth day i left her s SMS 'Why did u betray me?'No reply came.Thats all...............
Monday, July 27, 2009
My Adventurous First DATE
Well as u all know of now, i am officially committed.This is my first love and i did resolve to give my full committment.We talked quite often after our first meeting.I was going to stay around one month at home till Aug 10th.So I got a new sim and made it STD toll free to be able to call her as much as possible.Talking through these days we both realised that we hadn't spent much time together.So we decided that we would be meeting on JULY 23rd at siliguri.So in this POSt i will let u all know what happened during the days 22nd to 25th JULY.
22nd JULY: I had told my friend Gaurab about my plan.He would be staying at my home on 22nd and the next day we would leave for Accoland water park at AZara,Guwahati.I called him in the morning but only to know that he had got some emergent situation at his village and so he couldn't come.My first step failed, so i changed my plan and informed Bibek to replace him for a change.I told father gaurab wud be joining us at station.But in the evening i found Bibek also couldn't come. I was very upset, both my steps had failed. However I dint loose hope and told father that we three wud be meeting at the station.I went to the temple and prayed that all goes well.
23rd July: Iwoke up at 5,took bath and left for the station.The train started at 7 am. I reached Siliguri at 1.30pm. and went straight to Bazaar Kolkata where we were supposed to meet.As soon as i got down from the rickshaw i was terrrified to see my pisha coming right towards me.However i was lucky he dint see me.I called her and she said she would come in 10 minutes.Then I called my cousin(pishi's son) to know about the last bus,but to my horror he gave the phone to pishi and she demanded i should come.I pleaded my brother to manage the situation that she doesnt call my father.He assured me but said i had to come.I told pishi I would come at around 8pm.
It was 1.45 when she came.She looked so graceful and pretty on a black jeans and white t-shirt(that i had gifted her).She hadn't done any make-up,no smelly perfume,no lip-stick,yet a girl couldn't have looked prettier.I had been travelling for the last 8 hours,so i felt ashamed to go near her.She looked so fresh and young.She asked me if i had eaten anything.She fumed when i said no and we went straight to a restaurant.It was the first time i ate veg at a restaurant(yes,she is a pure veggie).I kept looking into her eyes.It feels so great.Then we went to the building where she had left her sister and sat on the stairs of a vacant storey.There she told me all about herself-her happy moments-her sad moments while i hold her hand.It was so soft and warm.We sat there for more than an hour.Then her sister came and we again went to a fast food restaurant.There we ate momo and chat from the same plate and also had cold-drink with the same straw.I was in heaven,i thought.It was getting dark.So she said she had to leave. I felt sad that time had passed out so fast.But what else could i do.I thought how much i have fallen for her. i couldn't even think of ever hurting her.
As the trekker reached her street she suddenly said that she had a dance class that evening upto 8pm and she can bunk it.My heart was thumping again.I started to walk a little ahead of her.She said she would catch me up in the street in around 10 min.But as i crossed her home i saw my mami was sitting on the terrace.I hid my face with a hankie and rushed past the house.Hardly had i passed it when i saw her brother staring at me.I was terrified not for me but for her,but i think he dint quite recognise me.I kept on walking straight away.When i had reached quite far i pulled out my fone only to find it had completely discharged and i dint recall her no.What to i borrowed the battery from a passerby then called her.Finally we met again.I hold her hand and we walked and talked.One hour flew away.
Then we went to her teacher's house.There was none at the gate.She said there was not much time left.I told her if she had anything more to say.She whispered me to close my eyes and i did so.She kissed on my cheeks.Then she asked me if i had anything else to say.I dint know what to do.I felt I had to kiss her but i was afraid.I told her that i am sorry if i hurt you.Then i pulled her upto me,hugged her and KISSED her-My first kiss.I cant say what was in my mind then or what i felt but i did plead to god from deep within-I dont want to loose her.A few more kisses followed and then we parted.
My date was over and it was a perfect one.I told father that i would be staying that night at Gaurab's mama's home at Guwahati.Then came the next problem.I went to pishi's house.To my pleasant surprise my brother managed well.The bahana was--I screwed up my laptop so that i wud get scolded quite much if my parents come to know of it and i had secretely gone there make it right and i would collect it the next day.Sounds pretty dumb but they believed it.However it meant that i couldn't leave before 10am and the only train available that day was at 2pm. This also meant i wont be able to reach home any way as the train reaches Bongaigoan at 7 pm and the last bus for Goalpara is at 5pm.
24th JULY: I left pishi's home at 10am and the train left at 2pm.I reached Bongaigoan at 7 pm.I wandered the streets in blank hope of finding some other means of reaching home but there were none.I dint know what to tell father.Suddenly a new plan hit my mind.I called father and told him that i had fallen asleep on the train awoke only when the train had crossed Brahmaputra,so no way to return but to stay at Bongaigoan.I felt verrrrrryyyyyy ashamed on having to tell so many lies to my loving and trusty parents--but what else could i do??So i went to my uncle's inlaws house there and spent the night there again telling them lots of lies.
25th JULY: At 9 am I boarded the bus to Goalpara and reached at 11.30 am.My 3 day adventure was over.Thanks GOD!!!!
22nd JULY: I had told my friend Gaurab about my plan.He would be staying at my home on 22nd and the next day we would leave for Accoland water park at AZara,Guwahati.I called him in the morning but only to know that he had got some emergent situation at his village and so he couldn't come.My first step failed, so i changed my plan and informed Bibek to replace him for a change.I told father gaurab wud be joining us at station.But in the evening i found Bibek also couldn't come. I was very upset, both my steps had failed. However I dint loose hope and told father that we three wud be meeting at the station.I went to the temple and prayed that all goes well.
23rd July: Iwoke up at 5,took bath and left for the station.The train started at 7 am. I reached Siliguri at 1.30pm. and went straight to Bazaar Kolkata where we were supposed to meet.As soon as i got down from the rickshaw i was terrrified to see my pisha coming right towards me.However i was lucky he dint see me.I called her and she said she would come in 10 minutes.Then I called my cousin(pishi's son) to know about the last bus,but to my horror he gave the phone to pishi and she demanded i should come.I pleaded my brother to manage the situation that she doesnt call my father.He assured me but said i had to come.I told pishi I would come at around 8pm.
It was 1.45 when she came.She looked so graceful and pretty on a black jeans and white t-shirt(that i had gifted her).She hadn't done any make-up,no smelly perfume,no lip-stick,yet a girl couldn't have looked prettier.I had been travelling for the last 8 hours,so i felt ashamed to go near her.She looked so fresh and young.She asked me if i had eaten anything.She fumed when i said no and we went straight to a restaurant.It was the first time i ate veg at a restaurant(yes,she is a pure veggie).I kept looking into her eyes.It feels so great.Then we went to the building where she had left her sister and sat on the stairs of a vacant storey.There she told me all about herself-her happy moments-her sad moments while i hold her hand.It was so soft and warm.We sat there for more than an hour.Then her sister came and we again went to a fast food restaurant.There we ate momo and chat from the same plate and also had cold-drink with the same straw.I was in heaven,i thought.It was getting dark.So she said she had to leave. I felt sad that time had passed out so fast.But what else could i do.I thought how much i have fallen for her. i couldn't even think of ever hurting her.
As the trekker reached her street she suddenly said that she had a dance class that evening upto 8pm and she can bunk it.My heart was thumping again.I started to walk a little ahead of her.She said she would catch me up in the street in around 10 min.But as i crossed her home i saw my mami was sitting on the terrace.I hid my face with a hankie and rushed past the house.Hardly had i passed it when i saw her brother staring at me.I was terrified not for me but for her,but i think he dint quite recognise me.I kept on walking straight away.When i had reached quite far i pulled out my fone only to find it had completely discharged and i dint recall her no.What to i borrowed the battery from a passerby then called her.Finally we met again.I hold her hand and we walked and talked.One hour flew away.
Then we went to her teacher's house.There was none at the gate.She said there was not much time left.I told her if she had anything more to say.She whispered me to close my eyes and i did so.She kissed on my cheeks.Then she asked me if i had anything else to say.I dint know what to do.I felt I had to kiss her but i was afraid.I told her that i am sorry if i hurt you.Then i pulled her upto me,hugged her and KISSED her-My first kiss.I cant say what was in my mind then or what i felt but i did plead to god from deep within-I dont want to loose her.A few more kisses followed and then we parted.
My date was over and it was a perfect one.I told father that i would be staying that night at Gaurab's mama's home at Guwahati.Then came the next problem.I went to pishi's house.To my pleasant surprise my brother managed well.The bahana was--I screwed up my laptop so that i wud get scolded quite much if my parents come to know of it and i had secretely gone there make it right and i would collect it the next day.Sounds pretty dumb but they believed it.However it meant that i couldn't leave before 10am and the only train available that day was at 2pm. This also meant i wont be able to reach home any way as the train reaches Bongaigoan at 7 pm and the last bus for Goalpara is at 5pm.
24th JULY: I left pishi's home at 10am and the train left at 2pm.I reached Bongaigoan at 7 pm.I wandered the streets in blank hope of finding some other means of reaching home but there were none.I dint know what to tell father.Suddenly a new plan hit my mind.I called father and told him that i had fallen asleep on the train awoke only when the train had crossed Brahmaputra,so no way to return but to stay at Bongaigoan.I felt verrrrrryyyyyy ashamed on having to tell so many lies to my loving and trusty parents--but what else could i do??So i went to my uncle's inlaws house there and spent the night there again telling them lots of lies.
25th JULY: At 9 am I boarded the bus to Goalpara and reached at 11.30 am.My 3 day adventure was over.Thanks GOD!!!!
MY FIRST LADY
Two posts before this one I made a resolution to have a real girlfriend by the end of this vaccation.well i think i have been succesful so this post is actually a summary of how i met my lady.
Well the story starts at the end of our great project.We had planned a visit to Gangtok on our way home.Me and jitu wud be staying at my pishi's home at siliguri.We spent the night there and left for gangtok the next morning.We stayed at gangtok for two nights.Then we returned to siliguri and the next morning we went to my mama's new house at siliguri itself.It was here that my love life took the u-turn.
On reaching there my little sister(cousin) informed me that there was a damsel in neighbouring house and I should try my luck on her.She called the girl to their home and she came.I was blown off at the very first sight of her.She walked gracefully and sat on a vacant chair near me.We both hesitated talking first,but gradually with a bit of help from jitu the engines started and my race began.That very moment I was firmly determined to leave no stone unturned to wooo her.We talked for about an hour and i think she liked talking to me.We were on the terrace then.But suddenly her mother came over their terrace and stared at her talking to 'stranger'.She was frightened and left immediately.I and jitu also came down soon after and i was completely lost in her thoughts.She was in their drawing room and could be seen from where i was.But i dint see as i thought it to be inappropriate.But i dont know what made jitu peep his face out of the purdah only to find her mother looking straight at him.Immediate response---she slammed all the windows.I was upset as it left a bad impression on her mother.In the evening i asked my cousin if she could help bring her out that evening so that we could talk.She tried but failed.however she did give me assurance that she will try her best the next day.
Soon after we left mama's house and went to watch Kambakht Ishq.The movie was totally dumb and also my mind only thought of what was to happen the next day.I had my first non-exam oriented sleepless night. The next morning greeted me with a confirmatory msg---she would be coming at COSMOS megamall at around 12.30pm.I jumped on hearing this.This was my first unofficial date.I went to market and bought a new pair of sneakers,my clothes were dirty so I took one of jitu's t-shirt.I then picked up my sister and reached the spot at 12.20.
12.30-12.45-1.00-1.30--there was no sign of her.Finally at around 1.45 she came(with her sister).I dint know what to do after that--i was alone.My childlike mind pointed to the Gamestation and there we went.She played basket ball.I was thumping just to watch her soft hands throwing the balls.We did occasionally touch each other and it felt great.Then we went to the bowling arena and bought a game.Jitu had come by the and enjoyed the most of it while i was just walking in dreamland.He helped me get more time with her alone by keeping her sister and my cousin busy.
We then roamed around from one shop to another,she was searching for a t-shirt.It felt unearthly on spending such time with a pretty girl and her 'nakhras'.Finally after 2 hours of searching she did find one at Pantaloons.I took the t-shirt and paid the bill.It was then she demanded why i paid the bill.I replied it was a gift.She asked who I was to gift her.I felt caught too fast.I gathered all my guts and said ' do i have to say in words '.She said 'yes '.I said 'it might be too early to say but i want u to be mine.I dont think i have to propose--i think we will fall in love in days to come.What do you say?'. She hesitated,i thought my dumb proposal had failed me.But then i heard a whispering sound-but it was loud and clear---"YES". We could see the joy in each others eyes.
It was JULY 6th,2009.I had my first(and if all goes well my last and only) girlfriend.We talked a bit about our families.Sorry i forgot to say she is a Marwari and me Bengali.We the parted away separately.I called her at night and asked if i could say 'I love u' to her.She said " BUDDHU(thats what she calls me by now) I have given u that much right."I said the three words 'I love u' the first time that night on phone. The next day also I went to my mama's home and met her there. I put my arms around her -my first time.I left home the next day.I am in love--
Well the story starts at the end of our great project.We had planned a visit to Gangtok on our way home.Me and jitu wud be staying at my pishi's home at siliguri.We spent the night there and left for gangtok the next morning.We stayed at gangtok for two nights.Then we returned to siliguri and the next morning we went to my mama's new house at siliguri itself.It was here that my love life took the u-turn.
On reaching there my little sister(cousin) informed me that there was a damsel in neighbouring house and I should try my luck on her.She called the girl to their home and she came.I was blown off at the very first sight of her.She walked gracefully and sat on a vacant chair near me.We both hesitated talking first,but gradually with a bit of help from jitu the engines started and my race began.That very moment I was firmly determined to leave no stone unturned to wooo her.We talked for about an hour and i think she liked talking to me.We were on the terrace then.But suddenly her mother came over their terrace and stared at her talking to 'stranger'.She was frightened and left immediately.I and jitu also came down soon after and i was completely lost in her thoughts.She was in their drawing room and could be seen from where i was.But i dint see as i thought it to be inappropriate.But i dont know what made jitu peep his face out of the purdah only to find her mother looking straight at him.Immediate response---she slammed all the windows.I was upset as it left a bad impression on her mother.In the evening i asked my cousin if she could help bring her out that evening so that we could talk.She tried but failed.however she did give me assurance that she will try her best the next day.
Soon after we left mama's house and went to watch Kambakht Ishq.The movie was totally dumb and also my mind only thought of what was to happen the next day.I had my first non-exam oriented sleepless night. The next morning greeted me with a confirmatory msg---she would be coming at COSMOS megamall at around 12.30pm.I jumped on hearing this.This was my first unofficial date.I went to market and bought a new pair of sneakers,my clothes were dirty so I took one of jitu's t-shirt.I then picked up my sister and reached the spot at 12.20.
12.30-12.45-1.00-1.30--there was no sign of her.Finally at around 1.45 she came(with her sister).I dint know what to do after that--i was alone.My childlike mind pointed to the Gamestation and there we went.She played basket ball.I was thumping just to watch her soft hands throwing the balls.We did occasionally touch each other and it felt great.Then we went to the bowling arena and bought a game.Jitu had come by the and enjoyed the most of it while i was just walking in dreamland.He helped me get more time with her alone by keeping her sister and my cousin busy.
We then roamed around from one shop to another,she was searching for a t-shirt.It felt unearthly on spending such time with a pretty girl and her 'nakhras'.Finally after 2 hours of searching she did find one at Pantaloons.I took the t-shirt and paid the bill.It was then she demanded why i paid the bill.I replied it was a gift.She asked who I was to gift her.I felt caught too fast.I gathered all my guts and said ' do i have to say in words '.She said 'yes '.I said 'it might be too early to say but i want u to be mine.I dont think i have to propose--i think we will fall in love in days to come.What do you say?'. She hesitated,i thought my dumb proposal had failed me.But then i heard a whispering sound-but it was loud and clear---"YES". We could see the joy in each others eyes.
It was JULY 6th,2009.I had my first(and if all goes well my last and only) girlfriend.We talked a bit about our families.Sorry i forgot to say she is a Marwari and me Bengali.We the parted away separately.I called her at night and asked if i could say 'I love u' to her.She said " BUDDHU(thats what she calls me by now) I have given u that much right."I said the three words 'I love u' the first time that night on phone. The next day also I went to my mama's home and met her there. I put my arms around her -my first time.I left home the next day.I am in love--
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Me & Girls--Before i got my Girl
Well i dont know how to start but lets try and see how well it goes----
Let me tell from the very beginning.
Class 6: My tiny school is going all hush-hush.A new girl is coming-very intelligent--thats all i noticed about her.Though now when i think about her its all different--she was slim,attractive,and all that qualify as'challiya'.From the first day itself our great competition started.Final results declared and i was out of my rule of the class.I was shattered more of ashamed.A new girl,comes from nowhere,studies for 6 months and fucks me out of my kingdom!!!I was filled with vengeance.Then i just had one thind in mind--get her out and regain my chair.
Class 7: My year of revenge began.I studied as if it was my board exam.Those little thoughts of attraction towards her were suppressed by an overwhelming sense of vengeance.By the end of the year There was not a single problem in the books i couldn't solve.In the meantime she had become a good friend of my didi.Didi told me thatshe did inquire about me now and then.Results were out.She got 96%.I thought i lost it.I checked mine--96.2%.She was crying while i jumped off.I was such a disgusting fellow that dint even console her.She walked off,her last day at my school.I did notice her afterwards waiting for her school bus on my way to school.Our eyes did meet but we never talked.
Class8-10:These two years passed fast.I studied hard to secure the top rank in board exam.My teachers and parents had high expectations.Even i was pretty confident.All wud have gone right had i not fucked the Social Science exam by slipping a 10 mark question.Only during the after exam discussions did i realise that a 10 mark question slipped my notice!!!Result---I ended up getting 22nd (88%) position from a well assured top 10.I cried & cried-why did this happen to me??But time moves on and scars get filled.
Class 11:I just filled form of one school KVK-the best one in Guwahati then.I went alone for admission.It was on that day i noticed a new girl.She had come with her father.I stood behind her on the queue.Classes started a week later.Slowly as time progressed i felt that i liked her presence.My eyes did search for her in the class.The rumour spread in the class that i had a crush on her.All this made me feel that i really liked her.But i always had the inferiority complex with her.I felt myself to be much inferior.The only way to get noticed was to study hard and stand out of the class that consisted of state rankers and cbse toppers.I did study hard and came out 2nd in the class(90%).
Class 12: I felt i had something in hand to talk to her.We did talk occasionally wit she teasing me on studies.I liked that.I my heart wanted to tell her but my fucking brain always crossed the way.So I was never able to tell her.Board exams over (88.4%) and we left our ways.I got admission in IISER-kolkata. I later heard she Was in Tezpur University.
Over and out: After i left school whenever i felt like interested in a girl, a thought interrupted me that i didnt even ask my first crush what sh felt of me.During my stay in kolkata a friend ,jitu, persuaded me to call her.I called her and only talked about our whereabouts.But whatever it was i wanted to get free.I dint mind if it was a yes or no.So finally,during my last visit to Guwahaty on June 2009, Bhaskar,Rahat & Arijit made me send a proposal sms.Actually Bhaskar wrote it.The next night i got reply--NO.I dint feel bad.I thanked her. It was over and I was free.
Let me tell from the very beginning.
Class 6: My tiny school is going all hush-hush.A new girl is coming-very intelligent--thats all i noticed about her.Though now when i think about her its all different--she was slim,attractive,and all that qualify as'challiya'.From the first day itself our great competition started.Final results declared and i was out of my rule of the class.I was shattered more of ashamed.A new girl,comes from nowhere,studies for 6 months and fucks me out of my kingdom!!!I was filled with vengeance.Then i just had one thind in mind--get her out and regain my chair.
Class 7: My year of revenge began.I studied as if it was my board exam.Those little thoughts of attraction towards her were suppressed by an overwhelming sense of vengeance.By the end of the year There was not a single problem in the books i couldn't solve.In the meantime she had become a good friend of my didi.Didi told me thatshe did inquire about me now and then.Results were out.She got 96%.I thought i lost it.I checked mine--96.2%.She was crying while i jumped off.I was such a disgusting fellow that dint even console her.She walked off,her last day at my school.I did notice her afterwards waiting for her school bus on my way to school.Our eyes did meet but we never talked.
Class8-10:These two years passed fast.I studied hard to secure the top rank in board exam.My teachers and parents had high expectations.Even i was pretty confident.All wud have gone right had i not fucked the Social Science exam by slipping a 10 mark question.Only during the after exam discussions did i realise that a 10 mark question slipped my notice!!!Result---I ended up getting 22nd (88%) position from a well assured top 10.I cried & cried-why did this happen to me??But time moves on and scars get filled.
Class 11:I just filled form of one school KVK-the best one in Guwahati then.I went alone for admission.It was on that day i noticed a new girl.She had come with her father.I stood behind her on the queue.Classes started a week later.Slowly as time progressed i felt that i liked her presence.My eyes did search for her in the class.The rumour spread in the class that i had a crush on her.All this made me feel that i really liked her.But i always had the inferiority complex with her.I felt myself to be much inferior.The only way to get noticed was to study hard and stand out of the class that consisted of state rankers and cbse toppers.I did study hard and came out 2nd in the class(90%).
Class 12: I felt i had something in hand to talk to her.We did talk occasionally wit she teasing me on studies.I liked that.I my heart wanted to tell her but my fucking brain always crossed the way.So I was never able to tell her.Board exams over (88.4%) and we left our ways.I got admission in IISER-kolkata. I later heard she Was in Tezpur University.
Over and out: After i left school whenever i felt like interested in a girl, a thought interrupted me that i didnt even ask my first crush what sh felt of me.During my stay in kolkata a friend ,jitu, persuaded me to call her.I called her and only talked about our whereabouts.But whatever it was i wanted to get free.I dint mind if it was a yes or no.So finally,during my last visit to Guwahaty on June 2009, Bhaskar,Rahat & Arijit made me send a proposal sms.Actually Bhaskar wrote it.The next night i got reply--NO.I dint feel bad.I thanked her. It was over and I was free.
Friday, June 26, 2009
PROJECT 'FAILURE'
Well thats the name of my project.sounds pretty heavy.doesn't it?it took me the last five days of chandigarh to screech out this name.now lets see in detail what this project was all about:
Day 1-----------foolish as we are,we taxied the whole way from delhi to chandigarh.wasted around 2000 bucks on the very first day.
Day 2-----------Visited PEC.the very sight of the prof pointed towards what lay in front of us.gave us one book and said --bye dear sons.Rock garden & Shalimar bagh.
Day 3-----------Playstation 2 Medal of honor,Winning 11
Day 4-----------Playstation 2 Delta force,Winning 11
Day 5-----------Played cricket till last drop of water dehydrated from our bodies.
Day 6-----------Suffered the aftershock of over-cricketing.me developed overwhelming cramps.
still we had enough energy to go to the market and buy -Medal of honor-pacific assault and PES-2008
Day 7-----------Suffering the same aftershock while at the same time working on Medal of honor -pacific assault.
Day 8-----------Time for second visit to PEC.This time prof insisted on us doing some kind of programming on engine dynamics.We blankly agreed.that night we played PES-2008
Day 9-----------Me and my friend start some serious study.We really did study some engineering thermodynamics that day.
Day 10----------Real study that day.finally we were succesful in fixing our project name.It was'
VARIATION OF FINAL TEMPERATURES VITH CHANGING AIR/FUEL RATIO' ,.Started to feel the heat that time.
Day 11----------PEC again.this time with a project proposal.we did heavy talks.Our proposal read thus--making a program for our project for theoretical values,,,,,experiment in lab engines and find practical values,,,,,,compare them,,,,,,,write conclusions.prof nodded.we were rejuvinated.We booked our return tickets for 30th that night in rajdhani to Siliguri with darjeeling in mind.
Day 12----------Rested that day thare tinking programming was simple.In the evening me,jitu and nitin's whole family (well these two are the partners in my super project)went out for sight-seeing.we went to Nada-Sahib, Maa mansa mandir(more of a pilgrimage) we had dinner at restaurant that night.
Day 13----------Shalimar---thats the new mall in panchkula.we went there but everything there except the multiplex was closed.We watched PAYING GUESTS there.the i had my first non-veg meal in chandigarh.----chicken masala with chicken fried rice.
Day 14----------Started to learn python.and by the end of the day we were able to make simple programs.thought we had learnt quiet some programing and our project will soon be over.
Day 15----------Spent the day modifying our programs i.e combining simple programs to co0mplex ones.Finally we reached a step where the solution of a 9th degree polymomial will complete the program.this was beyond our reach.So we decided that we would take help from some engg. student and complete it.slept happily that night.
Day 16-----------Showed the program to prof.he called one of his students to solve the problem.
but this person said it cant be solved easily and also he dint know python.so we reached a dead end.with little possibility of saving our project,i said that we could still do the lab part.so the prof set lab appointment at 9 am the next day.
Day 17-----------Set out for PEC at 9.30!!!nitin felt sick at bus-stand and we had to return.this was the informal end to our project.
Day18------------Nitin's illness continued and by the nnd of the day i decided we should leave the next day.However auntie requested so we decided to leave day after the next day.
Day 19-----------PEC again for good.city viewing at night with family.
Day 20-----------Delhi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Day 1-----------foolish as we are,we taxied the whole way from delhi to chandigarh.wasted around 2000 bucks on the very first day.
Day 2-----------Visited PEC.the very sight of the prof pointed towards what lay in front of us.gave us one book and said --bye dear sons.Rock garden & Shalimar bagh.
Day 3-----------Playstation 2 Medal of honor,Winning 11
Day 4-----------Playstation 2 Delta force,Winning 11
Day 5-----------Played cricket till last drop of water dehydrated from our bodies.
Day 6-----------Suffered the aftershock of over-cricketing.me developed overwhelming cramps.
still we had enough energy to go to the market and buy -Medal of honor-pacific assault and PES-2008
Day 7-----------Suffering the same aftershock while at the same time working on Medal of honor -pacific assault.
Day 8-----------Time for second visit to PEC.This time prof insisted on us doing some kind of programming on engine dynamics.We blankly agreed.that night we played PES-2008
Day 9-----------Me and my friend start some serious study.We really did study some engineering thermodynamics that day.
Day 10----------Real study that day.finally we were succesful in fixing our project name.It was'
VARIATION OF FINAL TEMPERATURES VITH CHANGING AIR/FUEL RATIO' ,.Started to feel the heat that time.
Day 11----------PEC again.this time with a project proposal.we did heavy talks.Our proposal read thus--making a program for our project for theoretical values,,,,,experiment in lab engines and find practical values,,,,,,compare them,,,,,,,write conclusions.prof nodded.we were rejuvinated.We booked our return tickets for 30th that night in rajdhani to Siliguri with darjeeling in mind.
Day 12----------Rested that day thare tinking programming was simple.In the evening me,jitu and nitin's whole family (well these two are the partners in my super project)went out for sight-seeing.we went to Nada-Sahib, Maa mansa mandir(more of a pilgrimage) we had dinner at restaurant that night.
Day 13----------Shalimar---thats the new mall in panchkula.we went there but everything there except the multiplex was closed.We watched PAYING GUESTS there.the i had my first non-veg meal in chandigarh.----chicken masala with chicken fried rice.
Day 14----------Started to learn python.and by the end of the day we were able to make simple programs.thought we had learnt quiet some programing and our project will soon be over.
Day 15----------Spent the day modifying our programs i.e combining simple programs to co0mplex ones.Finally we reached a step where the solution of a 9th degree polymomial will complete the program.this was beyond our reach.So we decided that we would take help from some engg. student and complete it.slept happily that night.
Day 16-----------Showed the program to prof.he called one of his students to solve the problem.
but this person said it cant be solved easily and also he dint know python.so we reached a dead end.with little possibility of saving our project,i said that we could still do the lab part.so the prof set lab appointment at 9 am the next day.
Day 17-----------Set out for PEC at 9.30!!!nitin felt sick at bus-stand and we had to return.this was the informal end to our project.
Day18------------Nitin's illness continued and by the nnd of the day i decided we should leave the next day.However auntie requested so we decided to leave day after the next day.
Day 19-----------PEC again for good.city viewing at night with family.
Day 20-----------Delhi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, June 22, 2009
the first year is over.cool to say ' i am 20% a scientist. but looking back i can't see the things that i have learnt.i didnt study seriously but still am getting good grades.how??think the course was like this only.
now it is summer break.i am doing project in PEC , or thats what it was supposed to be.in thermodynamics???my weakest topic.it thought the project would teach me this bunch.but now after 15 wasted days and with only 5 days remaining it doessn't seem quite likely so.so finally we had to resort to bluffing the teacher again and doing some silly things.thats how life goes.
the only real breakthrough i can say to have made is that of my phobia against girls.not exactly against but actually the fear of talking inappropriate things is what had kept me so far from them till now.but now i think i have started to change.now my aim is that before the 2nd year starts i have a real girlfriend.
now it is summer break.i am doing project in PEC , or thats what it was supposed to be.in thermodynamics???my weakest topic.it thought the project would teach me this bunch.but now after 15 wasted days and with only 5 days remaining it doessn't seem quite likely so.so finally we had to resort to bluffing the teacher again and doing some silly things.thats how life goes.
the only real breakthrough i can say to have made is that of my phobia against girls.not exactly against but actually the fear of talking inappropriate things is what had kept me so far from them till now.but now i think i have started to change.now my aim is that before the 2nd year starts i have a real girlfriend.
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