Shit shit fuck fuck thats what i curse myself when my phone rings these days.Coz i m proceeding towards something which i never wanted..i dont know how to get out of this position.Its completely me to blame just me...Lets see how i got into this...
This is again a GIRL.Just in my last post i wrote girls are out of my life for the time being but i dint know then that time would be been so quickly.I met this girl in my Uncle's marriage 'J' her initials.She looked quite impressive then.We were one of the so called 'marriage-time couples' then with everyone winking eyes at us.but that was all then..i talked to her ..she was one class senior to me.So we both presumed she was older to me and there was no possible match.but we remained friends.It was back then on 2006-7. I called her the first time a week after and i was quite hardstruck to find her mother on the other end of the line.I just introduced myself to her as quickly as possible and cut the phone with the determination of never calling her back again..But soon after her call came and thats how our callings started but completely as friends coz she was elder to me.Our callings were mostly on making fun.i did hurt her a lot of times.Thats how 1--2--3 years past.She was the first one i informed after making my first girlfriend.Thats when i stopped talking frequently to her..
After my breakup i called her to inform of this((see my fucking mind)).And she was more than enough sympathetic towards me.So frequent calls started again
Thats when the problem started.One day probably 3 days before i jokingly proposed her..Haah ..she took it too seriously..She told she needed some time to think..After leaving the call did i realize that haw can i propose a girl whom i haven't even met for 4 years.I prayed from my heart that she rejects me and we remain just friends..She called the next day and 'i am not able to accept ur reguest' i thanked god..........................but her voice sounded something else.I could feel a yes in her no...god damn it..I diverted the discussion that we should better remain friends...But but but..dont know how much i succeeded..
Next day we talked again for quite some long time.In the whole time i tried diverting the topics while she tried to converge my diversion.She kept asking me questions which needed me to show my committment which i dint want.The only reason for me not wanting to get involved is that i have not seen her for 4 long years.So if she turns out to be not my type..what to do..besides she is too close to my family..anything rumour could spread like a jungle fire..Now i am in a situation --i dont want to lose her as friend while friendship is pointing towards a relationship..gosh what to do..
Thats when the problem started.One day probably 3 days before i jokingly proposed her..Haah ..she took it too seriously..She told she needed some time to think..After leaving the call did i realize that haw can i propose a girl whom i haven't even met for 4 years.I prayed from my heart that she rejects me and we remain just friends..She called the next day and 'i am not able to accept ur reguest' i thanked god..........................but her voice sounded something else.I could feel a yes in her no...god damn it..I diverted the discussion that we should better remain friends...But but but..dont know how much i succeeded..
Next day we talked again for quite some long time.In the whole time i tried diverting the topics while she tried to converge my diversion.She kept asking me questions which needed me to show my committment which i dint want.The only reason for me not wanting to get involved is that i have not seen her for 4 long years.So if she turns out to be not my type..what to do..besides she is too close to my family..anything rumour could spread like a jungle fire..Now i am in a situation --i dont want to lose her as friend while friendship is pointing towards a relationship..gosh what to do..
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